For a long time, the answer was "my mom".... and it felt very unconfortable, very imprisionant, very limiting... very!
After sometime, it became the "society" . My friends, and the friends of my friends who I really never met. "What would they think about my dress, my hair, my speech, the people I like to hang out with ?"
And that was again very limiting. If I could describe myself, it was like wearing clothes that didn't fit.
My love partner was again someone who I "didn't want to let down", and "letting down" meant meeting his expectations about myself. Not really mine.
And more recently, the social media. Oh wow! Now judgements and self-acceptance, went to another stratospherical level! Literraly billions of people looking at you and having their own opinion about yourself. Usually different, from what you think.
Scary, imprisioning, limiting, once again. Who's judging you? And why do you feel so ashamed ?
My personal goal is to remember myself that it won't stop, unless you stop caring. Only you can judge yourself.
I want to fly. Somebody would promplty say:" But you don't have wings!" . There are many ways I can fly... come on, use your imagination! But that person's saying could stuck in my head, and then I could give up on my dream. Forever. And regret it. Or....I can just go ahead and do it! Regardless what people think.
I want to go deep inside of me and I am afraid of what I'll see. Maybe it's not good enough, but most likely it will be too good for the people and environment I'm around today. And that's scary.
Ligia, be fearless, and do it! Regret only the things you didn't do.
With love,
me
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